I just finished reading Dharma Punx by the amazing Noah Levine. He writes of spending a year of acting as if he only had one year to live and what he would do with that time, and his journey into Buddhism. I began reflecting on my life and what I have done and what the world means not only to me, but to others.
I’m no saint. I’ve done my share of bad and good. I like to think that the good outweighs the bad (don’t we all). I try and treat others the way I want to be treated and share what I have with others.
This past year has brought around so many changes. Beginning of the background to my decision...
On March 27th, 2010, my husband and I separated after nearly 7 years of marriage. There were many factors in this. I loved him very much, but we were very very toxic for each other. I had become a selfish and nagging shrew who basically went to work as often as I could to escape the household and him. My health suffered, I was angry all the time (when I wasn’t sobbing), verbal abuse was used by both of us, and there was just so much despair. We finally moved apart and I filed for divorce.
The year that followed, I made sure to spoil myself. I took more time off from work. I travelled to Chicago, San Antonio, and Seattle. I nestled into my apartment (after a good saging), and made my little world. Then my little world got a little bigger.
One year to the day that the Ex and I separated, Tiger walked into my life. We had gone to HS together and recently had connected over FB, but I just viewed him as an old buddy. But on March 27th, 2011, he literally walked into my life, via the restaurant I was working at. After my shift, we went and caught up over a drink at The Bar by my apartment, and from that night on, he’s been a constant in my world. To the point of moving in with me two months later. Tiger has been nothing but a blessing. But it doesn’t end there. Before Tiger had invited himself (with open arms of course) into what is now our happy life, I had invited one of my girlfriends from Chicago to move into my second bedroom. LJ had been unemployed there for years, and she finally accepted my offer to relocate. So, mid April of last year, she moved in, then Tiger joined us. There have been rough times, but we all try very hard to make this as amazing of an experience as possible.
During this time, I was working as a waitress at one of the more popular local restaurants. At the end of last year, I was coming home from work shaking and sad. It wasn’t that I hated my job. I loved it and worked with my best friends. It was just after 25 years of the restaurant industry, I hit the wall. I was miserable. So I broke my cardinal rule. I gave notice with no back up job.
The story goes on, but I’ll save it for my next post. Basically, I’m calling this the Year of Life Changing. Doing things that will not only enrich my life, but others and the world around me. I hope everyone who comes across this little blog enjoys my new adventures…
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